so 20 year high school reunion this weekend. I’ve gone through all the thoughts of “am I skinny enough, successful enough, pretty enough”, etc. I finally asked myself. “Enough” for who, exactly? I don’t really even talk to anyone I went to high school with anymore. Besides the fact that I spent the middle 2 years in a completely different school, and moved to San Diego as soon as I graduated. I was putting all this pressure on myself, and really, why? So I’ve taken a step back. It’s interesting to observe myself and really think about those old devilish thoughts that used to cloud my mind in high school. I came from an uneasy childhood, and confusing adolescence, and spent a lot of my early years just trying to figure out what I was “suppose” to be doing, since my parents weren’t great at indicating what exactly that was. And in that, formed some self perceptions, now long gone, but still, they left me feeling less than, and like I’d never be able to … I spent so much time looking at what other people were doing so I could figure out what I should be doing, that I forgot about me. I’ve come a long way, baby. And it’s when I stopped myself for a second and really thought about it all that I realize I’m pretty damn happy with who I have become.
And now, to a night of over priced dinners, and silly high school stories… and as Iggy Pop says… life is crazy.